Tuesday, 1 July 2008

And back to nothing

Felt a little nauseous this morning, had scan (ovaries are back to normal) and blood test and then the waiting game started ... we managed to hand in stuff to the grounds keeper at Meadowbank and hang up the Wolves Banner again during that time and check the gameday program.

DH called the clinic at 12pm ... and the result was <5.

I am totally angry and fed up with it all right now. :( Why didn't I get anywhere near this time? Had detox, acupuncture, took time off work, was eating sensible and have been taking vits. FFS!!! What else can be done? It seems the embryos are doing ok, just don't want to stick. And I bet the doctors will come back with the whole "weight thing" again. Gosh, I know people who are double to 2.5x my size, who have been eating not very healthily and still got pregnant naturally. Why don't the specialists bother to check out WHY I am not getting anywhere??? It's ridiculous that we spent already approx £8k and they don't bother looking into why the embies don't stick? They don't investigate my endo more and then it comes back to the weight.

Going to the gym tomorrow and will do my best to shift weight, and then we will see... should we really go for attempt no 4? Should we change clinics? Would that make any darn difference???


Dörte said...

oh man ... ich drück dich mal !! Wie blöd !! Ich weiß ja bei mir auch nicht woran es liegt - meine Ärztin hat es auch auf mein Gewicht geschoben - meiner Meinung nach absolut NICHT der Grund warum es nicht klappt - aber für die Ärzte wohl erstmal die einfachste Lösung !!! Ach menno ... ich hatte so mit einem positiven Ergebnis gerechnet bei dir !!!

Heather said...

Oh Kat, I'm so sorry to hear the news. You poor things. :( Sending lots of love and hugs.

Anam_Kihaku said...

ah fuck! there are no other words :( i am totally gutted for you :( i wish i could wave a magic wand and make your world happy and ps the weight thing is totally shite :(