Back for nearly a week at work and I really don’t like it. My boss is this week on holiday so the “2nd in command” is very lenient with me and targets … but I get to the point that I don’t like my job, don’t like sitting in an open space office with lots of other people… I just don’t like it!!! And I remember that I didn’t think that being in an office job would be the career for me when I got my Bilingual Secretary Diploma/Degree (or whatever you’d call it in UK). Why did I do the course in the first place? Well… it’s my forte for languages, I assume. And because I am not good at sciences and therefore couldn’t get anywhere in medicine really. And because I didn’t feel up for working life when I was 17.
So… what now? I thought after the negative result it’s the time for changing my life … I thougth I quit my job, concentrate on my studies and get that Diploma in January!!! Just need to get some practical time somehow, but it’s harder than you think! Whole insurance thing, and then – if only shadowing – it’s a patient/therapist confidentiality if there’s a 3rd person in the room. Seems easier in England somehow.
But then – I’m scared to bits. Quitting my job, which – while I hate it – is secure and brings some money in. I feel more scared than when I moved to the UK in 1998 (that was on my own, new country, “foreign” language but at least I had a job!)…. And now I am getting worried that if I don’t hand in my notice the next 2 weeks I will NEVER leave that office/job/building!!!